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Dream Africa :)

I really loved this so much 🙂 I still miss Ghana loads! But it’s not like I’m not going back xD I’m going as soon as I can! I’m gonna try to help as much as probably from where I am right now 🙂

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100!

I’ve been home for almost a week now. Last week around this time I was crying my eyes out at the airport. It’s weird how fast you get used to things. Don’t get me wrong, I still miss everything in Ghana so much. Literally everything. The kids, the volunteers, the project, the school, the dirt roads, the tro tro’s, the overload of unwanted attention, days without electricity, days without running water. All the good things and all the bad things. But I’m starting to get used to life here now. I’m picking myself up again. I’m looking for a job, for a place to live. I’m starting university in September. I’m meeting up with friends. Things are starting to make sense again. Still, from now on I’ll do everything I can to go to Ghana as soon as possible and as often as possible. Just for now, life goes on.

So now let’s try and be positive again. Back to the old me! Since this is the 100th post on my blog *cheers* I just want to have a quick recap! Even though this is a writer’s blog, I haven’t written a proper story in almost a year! So my new resolutions will start off with; actually writing some stories again!  Soon, my dear bloggers, soon.

But looking at the past 2 years I’ve been blogging, I’ve gotten pretty far! Not necessarily with writing, but I did get pretty far with life :). All the deep stuff about my life that I shared with pretty much the entire world made me open up a little bit. What I could only write to an anonymous crowd before I can actually say out loud now ^^. Also, writing really helped me get my thoughts in line more times than I can tell. I pretty much shared the biggest highlights of my life with the entire world and I hope some of these things have inspired people to make the most of everything 😀 (I also hope that people want to go volunteer at Dream Africa Care Foundation and experience the awesomeness for themselves (; ) I really learned a lot in this time. About living life to the fullest, and appreciating everything you have instead of taking it for granted. I started realising that there were a lot of little things in my life that I was complaining about. Now I realise that there are a lot more big things in my life that I should be grateful for! My life is good, because I have ups and downs, like any regular person. I have good times and bad times. There are times to laugh and times to cry, times to come and times to go. If I look at the bigger picture, these past two years have treated me really well. I’ve gotten more things than I ever could’ve asked for. I met people that are more important to me than I ever would’ve thought. I got to be an inspiration, a mom, a teacher, a sister, a friend and I got to be myself. Some things are really really hard, but the bigger picture is beautiful. The bigger picture is perfect! Thanks everybody, for sticking with me for all this time!

Goodbye Ghana

This was harder than I ever thought it was going to be. I knew it was going to be hard, but this is literally breaking my heart. Saying goodbye to the school kids was hard, but it still went kinda ok. I managed to not cry before I had actually left the school. The orphanage was about a hundred times harder. These kids are my life and I left them. They cried, begging me not to go and I still left them. They all came by hugging and kissing me one by one, multiple times. They gave me the most heartwarming, heartbreaking letters telling me to come back. “If you don’t come back I cry and cry and cry a lot. Auntie Samantha I love you so much.” I tried to cheer them up by playing some happy music, but they started crying even more. The last few days people have been constantly asking me if I’m ok. Everyone knows how much I love Ghana, with all the good things and all the bad things in it. Everyone knows that I’d give up the world to make the kids smile. And I left. To answer everyones question; No. I’m really not ok. I’m far from ok. I’m a continent away from ok. I said goodbye to the country I love, to the people I love and to my kids. I’m emotionally exhausted, and bordering depression. Then I come home, and there is an overload of things to take in, next to the fact that I won’t see my kids and one of my best friends for God knows how long. Home is nice, but it feels so different.

Ok, let’s brighten this post up a little bit. I usually don’t look at things from such a negative point of view, that’s not me, but now it’s getting really hard to think positive for me. But ok, I’ll try. Think positive.

-I get to see my friends and family again and I love them so much

-I like cheese

-I can still talk to the kids through the volunteers there

-I can help the kids from here by raising money

-After studying I can be of even more value to them

-I like apples too

There. That’s positive right? It’s all going to be ok right? To be honest, I don’t know yet. I don’t think I’ve ever felt so sad and confused in my life. So disoriented and so out of it that I feel a little sick. (Maybe I finally have malaria? :P) But for my own good I’m gonna have to look at the bright sides. There are a lot, I just can’t see them now because I’m too focused on the negative. I’m sorry that this is such a negative post. I’ll get there, I’m sure. I just need some time and some chocolate.

 

Welcome to Ghana

So now there’s a whole bunch of new volunteers in the house. It’s basically me and Elin that have been here since for very long, then two volunteers that have been here for kinda long and after that there’s a lot of people that have been here for a few days. On one hand I feel like I’ve had the whole crowded house, no free beds and no empty rooms experience now and I’d like a little bit of peace and quiet for now. Every time I walk into a room there are people there talking to each other, being social etc. While I really just want to sit next to each other and be quiet while appreciating each other’s company. That’s just how I am sometimes.

But on the other hand (that’s me seeing the positive side in everything) it is really good to have so many new people around. First of all it’s pretty cool that I get to show the new volunteers around. and really welcome them to the country and the project. Give them the whole I love Ghana talk and get them excited for everything here. If you meet someone that’s enthusiastic about something, you might be enthusiastic too. I’m so confident finding my way around now in Ghana that it really completely feels like home to me. Showing volunteers around Ghana feels like showing them my home. My country. Telling them about the little things they have to experience and that even though coming to Africa by your self is a big and scary thing in the beginning that they’re gonna have an amazing, fun, life changing experience. I love telling them about the way the kids stole my heart and the way I feel when I make a kid smile. I have to tell them that even though we have lights off multiple times a week, it made me appreciate light on so much more. I appreciate running water, a roof over my head and three meals a day so much more. I love saying that even though some projects have their downsides, it gives us the opportunity to suggest improvements and make changes. I love how these suggestions are so highly appreciated and actually put in to practise. The leader of Dream Africa, Jamal, is probably one of the kindest and selfless persons I have ever had the privilege to meet. He has given his whole life, every day and every week for this organisation just because he believes it’s the right thing to do. I can’t even tell you how much I admire that. That’s what I try though every time I talk to the new volunteers and every time I realise again how much I love this country and everything I’m doing here.

Besides all this it’ll also mean that we have a lot more teachers. The kids in the schools we help really need teachers. The schools are really understaffed and some of us sometimes have to divide our time running in between three different classes and trying to get them to learn something. These kids come to school to learn. They could be selling pure water sachets or plantain on the streets, but they’re in school trying to get something that other kids don’t even have the luck to have. These kids deserve teachers and with so many volunteers we can finally manage to have enough teachers.

Finally I love it when I see how the volunteers go through their first few weeks. Going from “I don’t know anything” to “I love everything!”. Seeing how the kids respond to new people is so much fun. It’s different for every volunteer in the last few moments before they walk into the orphanage. Some are nervous to see whether the kids will like them and some are wondering whether they will like the kids. Some have no idea what’s gonna happen and some have their expectations ready. For all of them though, the moment they walk through the gate the kids come running up to them. “What’s your name? Where are you from? How long are you staying?” All of them end up loving it!

Still when almost all of the people are going on a trip for the weekend and I get to be one of the only ones in a quiet, empty house… I’m kinda excited about that as well xD The variation makes it fun 🙂

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